Tuesday 28th May 2019

Originally posted Jan 2, 2021.

This is another blog post I had written but never released. So here it is now.

We have moments and days where sometimes it just gets on top of us. It's about standing up again as were still moving forward.

So this is a random blog that I'm writing on the day titled above. However this is probably released on a different date.

I wanted to reflect on this day because honestly, it just got too much today. I've been feeling over tired and very anxious this morning. I felt like I couldn't get a handle on the anxiety and I felt the panic rising. The way I tend to release this is by crying. I don't like people seeing me cry, hearing me cry, but it is such a good release.

Sometimes we cry for no reason, and what I need to learn is this is absolutely fine. After a cry, I always feel a lot better.

At this point (today), I've been recovering for a few months now, and I have been doing so well. I know I have! But I want to share this day as it started anxiety filled. But after talking to loved ones and friends, it puts into perspective how far I've come.

We all have down days. That's normal. I'm learning how to separate a down day from the anxiety disorder.

Later today I started to feel a lot better. Before I would have these feelings last for days. But I now they are getting less frequent and not lasting as long. There are so many positives to look too. I'm holding onto those!

So many people tell me this and I'm writing it to keep repeating to myself. I'm not going backwards, I'm learning. Learning how to cope with the anxiety and putting in place the coping mechanisms I've learnt. It's all a lesson, and I will be rewarded in the future.

I am learning to listen to my body. It was hard in the beginning, but it's getting easier everyday. A lesson I will continue for the rest if my life until its second nature.

If you can relate to this post just know its OK. These things happen, and we get back on our feet.

Danni